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Saturday, January 31, 2009 at 12:56 PM
only fell sound asleep at 5am?
hahahahas
wanted to OT today
but i am still at home now :x
just woke up not very long ago :(
lazy&tired
still got to go back though :(
maybe just a while more...
sigh

meeting up my lovelies later after work
they are now going around pai nian at each others house :p

on the sidenote
i am sporting grey eyes now
not as nice as the green one though
but i still like :D
impulse to go do bright colour hair extensions again
cindy is sporting a big patch of blonde hair now
duper nice lar!
what colour should i have this time?
purple? blue? green? or red again? :p

if it were a dream
it will be the sweetest dream i had thus far :)
please sing me a lullaby every night...
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Friday, January 30, 2009
at 12:03 PM
开工红包 :D
from Agnes, Camryn, and company :D
its was Agnes last day on wed (28 Jan 09) though :(
haix

was still duper tired yesterday
on the way to work, i fell asleep standing on train again =.=

went home for dinner
then meet up with gang for a movie
Love Matters at Cineleisure

kian, ann, zann, mike, irene & weiliang went to the wrong cinema :O
but lucky they manage to make it within the first few min of the show :)
my first movie for the month?
but the show
i dont like lo :x
its boring and quite a disappointment for me
maybe this time i cant relate as much to the show bahx :x

wanted to chill at Plasma after the show
but its full house by the time we got there :x
got to backtrack to Bali House :)
they had Erdinger and me & Jojo had Baileys on the rock :D
Baileys is love :D
adidas girl :p

this is call..BAD HABIT..lols

very expensive drinks :p

Pictures!! :D





great night out with all the lovely people :D
now some people come in a package already :p
hahahahas
i experience a stunning moment yesterday
it literally felt like those time had come to a standstill moments
while the whole world is still buzzing on
like u can hear nothing but your own heartbeats
good timing or bad timing?
i dont need an answer yet
but i have to say
i am is was were happy :D
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Thursday, January 29, 2009 at 10:39 PM
i am at war with myself
my heart cant let go
but my brain, being the rational one, says its time move on already
知りません
wallowing in all this emo-ness
i really dont want to
my tears are endless
but shouldnt be wasted on someone so heartless
i will try
tears that i shed wouldnt be for you anymore
i will try
stronger i will grow
i will try
to take a step at a time and walk on myself
i will try
to leave you, the pain, and the sad memories..behind...

goodbye; さようなら

this time i am fucking serious....
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Photos up on facebook :)
at 9:57 PM
Payday :D



just uploaded all the pending photos on fb :)
lazy load here :p
i is very tired :(
even fell asleep standing on train just now :x

Dbl O-ed last night
hahahas
kinda serve me right that i am tired today no?
we got special appearances
of candee and banny
and for once
ann isnt as crazy
cause many people toh!!!
LOLs
those who came:
Me
Ann
Kian
Mike
Zann
Irene
Wei Liang
Banny
Candee
Jojo
Ah Di
those who toh:
Candee
Zann
Mike
Banny
Irene
hahahahas

i was one of the most sober around :p
only took 3 vodka mixers :p
the rest took so many shots la!
that vile liquid eeew
lols
mike and zann super scandalous :p
we took many many photos!!
most with Zann :)
wait for her upload
haahas
candee lost her hp though :x
and i nearly lost my bag tag :x
found it on the floor lucky
by 1am
Candee, banny & irene left le
mike super gonex
zann was no better
hahahahas
had to keep a lookout for both of them
nearly 2am
Jojo went off
the rest of us hit the dancefloor
but by this time mike sober le!!
hahahahas
so dance dance dance until closing :p
i dont know being sober is good or bad
but it felt different
especially when everyone else is high or something
yupx

went 7-eleven to grab a bite
den cabbed home
nearly 4am when i reached home :(
and 3 hours later i got to wake up for work :(

pushed jap lesson to next tuesday instead of today
i need my sleep :(
duper not enough this days
haix!

photos that jojo send me :)
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Photos on 初一 :D
at 8:23 PM
the only top that i bought and haven worn yet :p

i really dont like pink :x
but pink is nice sometimes
hahahas

did this myself :D




food spread at grandma's :D

my 2nd aunt's dog
look like the starhub dog no?


me & li tian :)

we found antique at jia's house
LOLs

still very playable :p

never took much pics
this new year
really dont feel like new year :(
no mood one..

AND soon tian say i fat le :(
really mehx?
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Tuesday, January 27, 2009 at 11:18 PM
愛してる
但我也恨你
love and hate
such a thin line
loving you is tiring
hating you doesnt seem to make me feel any better either
i did what i can do
i tried what i feel i should
i am not the one running away this time
but whats the point when u went away instead
the irony of it all
a joke god is playing on me
faith
i long lost all
this game
i am sick of
dont like
the loneliness
dont like
all the emo-ness
tears
keep dropping
you
i keep thinking
songs
i keep remembering
the hurt
very painful
but holding on
for what i dont know
is this the last straw?
is this it??
wake up wake up please...
xoxo, Amber ♥
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at 10:02 PM
did u have a happy new year?
i didnt....

no CNY mood at all
just an excuse for us to pack the house properly for once
cant celebrate at grandma's
just gathering for all of us
didnt go out with cousins
too many cant make it
gamble a bit
no lose, no win much
woke up with a cloud of emo-ness over my head
i think i need more drinks :x

i still haven upload any photos
i know
i is very sad now

went drinking at winebar & phuture last night
with alan, mich, mich bf, mich sis & mich sis bf
drink lots
met tengcong there again
ha
this time no baileys
lychee martinee
sweet :)
alcohol is vile
but alcohol stop me from thinking
vodka mixers
dunk a bomb
martell mix (tengcong ta me)
vile vile vile
but it got me high
haix
everyone have their own set of problems
similiar ones
i dont know what to say
whats meant to be is meant to be?
right time and place for everything?
they say when god closes the door on you
a window will open
but i still cant see the window
and how do i go about looking for one
when the fucking door closes on my feet?
too fucking hurt...

losing all faith..
what a start for the year
how to pass the rest of the time
people come and go
left footsteps
left memories
and left...scars :(

msn
blocked
facebook
deleted
sms
no reply
need to do until so 绝?
fucking disappointed in you...

Dbl O tml...
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Sunday, January 25, 2009 at 4:38 AM
couldnt get over this song:

歌曲：说好的幸福呢
歌手：周杰伦
专辑：魔杰座

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

sorry...i really dont want to cry...
teach me...how to get better?
xoxo, Amber ♥
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at 3:40 AM
just got home
its becoming a perpetual habit?
to be home at 3am and blog about it :x

Jojo's birthday celebration at Plasma :)
a blast!
many many many photos again
i am owing a lot :x

the day had been busy and tiring
with helping sk with her latest collection from morning to evening
missed the 4e2 Potluck :(
sorry!
dinnered at home
knock out on the sofa for 2 hours instead of doing things i should
i is too tired :(

wake up
bathe and out of the house
to dhoby ghaut
then sing sing sing
drink drink drink
camwhore many many
much pair pair square square again :p
hahahas

this time no drink a lot
martell mixer is not love :x
but at least better than tequila
eew
the smell
i really can shudder inwards and outwards
Jojo toh after a few shots :x
we all continue our nonsense
hahahas
ann that crazy girl
keep ta-ing everybody
self-high
she very good at :p
dont know how many bottles of martell, how many jugs of beers
those who didnt survive:
Ah Di
Jojo
Ann

i is was good
until things got quieter
less people around
less talking
more thinking
more singings
emo songs again
songs sung by others also all emo one =.=
i is quite affected :(
why the person i need is never available?
stupid emotions

on the sidenote
i got to do all my 大扫除 tml!!
horrors but いいですいいです!!
i can do it :) i think

i promise pictures will be up soon...
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Saturday, January 24, 2009 at 3:13 AM
just got home :p
chevrons sing with xiang, shuhui & jennifer
i is craving for singing :D
happy indeed
but all the emo songs~~
会呼吸的痛
傻瓜
原谅我
对不起我爱你
我不配
带我走
心雨
祝我生日快乐
说好的幸福呢
眼泪知道
不能说的秘密
一个人生活
最近
叶子
一眼瞬间 etc...
lols

very busy day at work
no half day
hahahs
but play play play
cause got events
got lion dance
got buffet
got much laughters and fun
all no mood work :D
boss happy
we happy
muhahahahahas
as long as no got caught can le :p

office deco competition
my zone won
hahahahas
boss and bosses are superb
should see the way they impress the judges
very noisy, but still very lovable :D
they should all be in sales & marketing :)))
our secret weapons and hard work paid off :D
$100 credit plus barclays cap plus 3 red wines & 2 white wines
better than nothing :D
jon bluff us =.=
boss is very funny through and through :)

many many many photos
i really mean it
i brought my 2 cameras
cause i am appointed the official photographer :p
muahahahas
got 150 pics on one
the other not sure cause already got near 2000 photos inside le :x
i no clear that one since my birthday last year :p
i foresee near 300 photos?
got to seive and filter out and burn them for jon
for corporate use :D

didnt want to go home early
especially since i got class till 10pm
on a friday =.=
very sad de ok!!
already very deprived
so friday night cannot waste!!
hahahas
so went singing with my lovely friends :))
finally got my baileys with milk :D
i is a happy girl~

i is should go sleep already
tml morning 9am
sk want see me at her house
collection number dunno what already
i hope i can see nice nice clothes to get from her :D
photos will be uploaded soon :p
facebook and here
let me sort them out first :))

appetite been decreasing
surviving on the minimum
i found myself afraid of the free time that i have in my hands
i found myself wanting to find programmes to ensure that i am busy at all times
maybe i want to have more fun
or maybe i just dont want to be alone
dont want to spend so much time by myself
want to tired myself out
so that i have less time & energy to think about anything anymore
but everywhere
every step
every song
every scenario
i couldnt help but wonder
i is really dont know what to do...
*sigh*
私は馬鹿です :(

promises seem to be meant to be broken...
xoxo, Amber ♥
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Thursday, January 22, 2009 at 10:29 PM


chio chio chio!!!!
love at first sight :D
i shall promise myself
if i receive bonus next month
i will go renew my plan and get the HTC touch diamond
and also revamp my room a little!! :D
time for some pampering!!! ^^

looking forward to feb!!! :)))
tralalalalalas~~
xoxo, Amber ♥
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at 8:09 PM
4th book

a personal diary
4th one already
not a very regular habit that i have
a personal diary only surfaced when i am very sad
for my eyes only
i think i lost my 3rd one :(
and the first one isnt with me anymore
2nd one have tear stains
lols
its always nice to read back what i felt last time :)
so if you think by reading my blog, you know me well enough..
think again...

haden been home for so early for 2 weeks already
the past 2 weeks had been duper hectic
sometimes i felt bad that i go home so late
i dont even see much of my parents :(
i see dad at night when he waited up for me to reach home
i see mum in the morning before she left for work
the only time i caught them both is tonight :x
and parents had been very concern about my schedule & health
dad had been making tonic soup, mum prepare the chicken essence for me
i had been packing lunches from home to save costs
dad had to cook them/packed for me early in the morning
and mum always add in either a sunny side up or extra food :)
i feel very loved :D
どうもありがとうございます!!
i love you daddy & mummy!! :)

very restless at work today
i dont know is it the lack of sleep
or the lack of mood to work
hahahahas
a bit festive spirit due to the deco in office :)



this is call consider the environment?

haven shop for CNY :x
hahahas
but i doubt i gonna do much shopping ba
cause mum's side cannot celebrate
like no point
anyways
the only thing i am looking forward to is not CNY
but my HK trip that is coming at the end of CNY :)))
very excited~~
lalalalas~
lols
everytime i browse online for clothes,
i will tell myself that i should save the money to splurge in HK & shenzhen instead :)
so no online shopping for me for now :D

haven start my 大扫除 yet :p
i am a lazy girl
hahahahas
or rather i procrastinates :p
aiya
at most dump everything into the wardrobe and close the door?
LOLs
just kidding!!

i have decided :)
rather than i couldnt wake up from this nightmare
i think i will choose to think that i had just woken up from a very sweet dream
more optimistic? or just another denial? hahas
i have again left the crossroads
and am now back on the single parallel lane
i dont know for how long would i travel on this path again
i dont know who i will see at the next crossroads
a stranger or an old friend
i am afraid, yet i couldnt wait
lols
but no matter what
どうもありがとうございます for everything :)
even though さみしかったです!! :x
for now, my book will be sufficient enough to keep me company :)

いいです, 大丈夫です, もう一度, いいです, 大丈夫です, もう一度...*keep repeating under my breath*
the chant that pulled me through the day :)



to show that i got small eyes too when i look down that is :p
xoxo, Amber ♥
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