Went to Lim Chu Kang Crematorium to visit Grandpa today been a while since i had been there we went late this time; like 8+pm the adults said that it would be less crowded Grandma didnt came with us i dont know if she was too weak or cant (due to religious reasons) i didnt ask but i guessed its never easy to live with this truth and i hope she would be stronger with the loves from the rest of us.
We did the routine prayers etc wiped and cleaned the marble plate that held the photo and details replaced last year's flowers with fresh ones even with so many people around me there was still a hollow feeling inside
i still cry whenever i thought about Grandpa i still wished that time could go back i still hoped that i had been a better granddaughter i still had the regrets.
Death is just never easy for those who are still alive. |