i dont want to, but i got to understand thats part of my role; substitute am i too considerate? am i too nice? or too full of initiatives? sometimes i wish that i was away somewhere out there really busy doing my own things but i never was then again, its an order, a command i try to forgive and forget but will the others give me the same grace? i couldnt turn a blind eye, i couldnt just not remember
i try not to let it matter so much but tell my heart to stop feeling this way please my mind is logical but my heart is irrational :(
just not assertive enough but then again, assertiveness wouldnt seem to be bringing me anywhere too or maybe its just all about managing expectations why dont you all just tell me straight that this is what i got to do maybe it wouldnt feel that bad anymore. |