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Not Good: Version 2
Tuesday, March 02, 2010 at 6:54 PM
because i typed incoherently for Version 1
and it just get very whiny and illogical as i continue my ranting "essay"
i came up with a simpler Version 2

i am sad today
cried for an hour plus while talking with Angela
bottomline, do i want to continue doing what i dont like or move on with other plans?
do i want to risk another year tied down not knowing if i ever get to do what i want?
and if given more to do, can i cope, can i handle?
am i willing to commit the extra time, to go the extra mile, even if what i were doing is what i hated most?
do i want to risk whatever income or exposure that i may lose if i choose to leave for Plan B?
am i that sure that i can do much better if i go on full-time studies or i am just running away from the problems now?

i really need a break but each break that comes always seems too short :(
maybe its my mentality
maybe i got an attitude problem
maybe i am not as good as they thought i am
maybe...
the list could just go on and on..

probably i know what i want
but i am just afraid
afraid of all the consequences that may be caused due to my decision
i dont want to be rash
i dont want to walk through the path that i could avoid
i dont want to make the same mistakes that people are telling me they had made when they were my age
i still need some time to think about it
but time is running out.
xoxo, Amber ♥
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