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Monday, January 19, 2009 at 11:59 PM





office deco today
there is a competition going on
yupx
another day of work and school
i am very tired
of everything

i cant seem to wake up from this bad dream
this bad dream call reality
no matter how much tears shed
even though i seem to have a lot
i dont know why i keep tearing
i wonder when i can stop seeing you in my mind
i felt pathetic
but i dont want to plead anymore
i hope for time to rewind
incoherent
i was sad
then i was better
i was busy
then i was tired
i got fucking angry after
and fucking sad
i dont know why such a stupid thing can happen
i dont know why it matters so much
so what of all physical evidence is gone?
what happened had already happened
it doesnt delete that very fact
stop being so childish can
but still i relented
too naive, gulliable or just stupid?
i dont know anymore
the hot and the cold and the cold and the hot
i am hurt
fucking hurt
heart broke
been too long
cant even numb myself from the pain
physically everywhere but i am stuck at the time when everything crashes on me
i tried to be 伟大
sacrifice myself
maybe i am blinded
but then again
i got nothing to wish for anymore
this time..i let go because you got to walk away..

tell me..why did i not deserve anything?
xoxo, Amber ♥
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